She can teach herself anything. She can teach herself to sing. She
can teach
herself to open up your box of secrets and spill the memories and
things you keep
hidden inside. Without a way, that's what they say. The ocean
collects the sand,
wipes herself clean of the sting of salt. It's not my fault. But I
am guilty. Guilty of
what? Of not knowing what to say. Today...today she is strained,
pained, numb. Or
is it dumb? They say I can't write/ but I will fight. Fight to fill
my heart like an
ambulance in sirens screaming resonance.
I can't dance. So I will sing. I will sing and I will stop writing,
just...argue my
case
to the face. The faces of the places where I can't be let in. The
winners who score,
and what is it for? Watching the world, like velvet black. I am a
vulnerable cat.
Meow. what now? I have screwed it all to hell. You can laugh. Oh
well. Today is
cold, it's getting old. I have said things, to myself. To the
words...which reflect
passion. My passion is passion. But I can't move, can't seem to
believe. In the
sunshine there is a concubine. What's concubine? A line?
Today the sun is melting, today the world is dying. Today the world
is a corpse,
squared///and no one dared/ I dare. I dare myself to go insane. And
yet I'm plain.
It's so the same. Make it right...no...tonight. Just pain.
Drowning is the word to describe, what's going on in my mind.
Great.